salam aidiladha..

aidiladha datang lagi..

syukur, aku masih lagi bernafas..

masih ada peluang untuk aku merasai nikmat hidup..

esok raya..

first time raya tanpa tok..

ops,, second time kot..

first time masa tamhidi dulu,,

aku ingat lagi,,

cuti kejap jer,,

x sempat nk balik..

mama ngn baba decided nk raya kt kL,

aku ik0t jer masa tuu..

kali ni,, bukan tok jer yg xde,,

mama n baba p0n xder..

dorang ngah menunaikan rukun Islam ke-5,

'mengerjakan haji di Mekkah'..

sebak rasanya beraya tanpa orang2 tersayang..

mujur ada ateh n maksu..

dan chu n family..

at least, rasa gak la suasana raya kt umah ni..

hehee

akhir kalam..

SALAM AIDILADHA..

.:iniAku:.

huh..

hola.. hola...

huh,, i'm not well today..

awal2 pagi lagi da xde selera makan..

badan pon lenguh semacam jer..

kepala suda sakit..

rasa cam nak demam..

ya ALLAH!

jgn bg aku sakit saat ini..

bnyak bnda x setel lagi..

kuatkan hamba-MU ini ya TUHAN..

amien~

.:iniAku:.

..derita merindu..

derita merindu by ahli fiqir..

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan
Kau yang tak percaya? bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada, ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya? kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan?
Aku masih terkilan

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa
Kaulah bahagia (bagiku)
Kaulah derita (bagimu)
Esok lusamu, tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

.:iniAku:.

..thesis..

saat ni,,

sumer member2 aku tengah sibuk siapkan thesis..

aku p0n sibuk kt depan lappy ni gak..

layan fb, baca blog, check e-mail..

kenapa ya??

adakah kerana aku da siapkan thesis aku??

hahaha..

hebat nyer la, kalau aku da setelkan thesis tu..

huh,, I've made a choice..

i chose to fail the course.

[i.e., aku x siapkan pon thesis tuu..]

n i need to repeat the course by the next semester..

and now,, i got another choice to choose..

1. do thesis next semester and do industrial training the semester after that.

[xbley grad ngan kawan2 + rugi 1 sem]

or

2. do both next semester.

[need to work hard + can graduate in 2010 + x rugi pape]

cam xmampu jer nak buat 2,2 sekali..

tapi, mak su cakap..

if there is a want, there is a ways..

huh,, susah nyer nak buat keputusan...

.:iniAku:.

kenapa.. mengapa..??

kenapa??

mengapa??

aku masih lagi mengingati dirinya...

ujian apakah ini ya ALLAH!!

sesungguhnya aku tidak mampu untuk menghadapinya..

aku sangat lemah..

ya ALLAH!

berikan aku kekuatan..

tunjukkan aku jalan..

hindarkanlah diriku dari terus mengingati dirinya..

sesungguhnya,, Engkau Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..

.:iniAku:.

suda 1.40am...

wow.. 1.40am already..

nk tido..tp cm x ngantuk lagi...

haa,, tetiba teringat,,

td aku ada pnjam buku kt library..

[credit derivatives]

ni, klo baca ni,,

confirm x smpai 1 page,,

aku da bley lelap cm tu jer..

oleh itu.. aku nk g baca buku tu skrg..

okeh,, adioss~

.:iniAku:.

yeah,, everything has been decided..

i was sent an emel to prof Ali regarding my thesis n internship..

he suggested me to repeat the thesis next semester

n do the internship the semester after that..

how if i get the internship placement in Air Asia??

yeah, whatever happen,

i'm not graduate in 2010..

sorry guys for the 'worst' decision that i made..

i know,, some of u guys want us to graduate together next year,

but i can't make it...

hope i've made a right move~~

.::iniAku::.

good or bad, it's hard to say

Once upon a time, there was a king. The king liked one of his followers very much because he was very wise and always gave very useful advice. Therefore the king took him along wherever he went.

One day, the king was bitten by a dog, the finger was injured and the wound was getting worse. He asked the follower if that was a bad sign. The follower said, Good or bad, hard to say'. In the end, the finger of the king was too bad that had to be cut. The king asked the follower again if that was a bad sign. Again, the follower gave the same answer, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. The king became very angry and sent the follower to prison.

One day, the king went hunting in the jungle. He got excited when he was on the chase of a deer. Deeper and deeper he went inside the jungle. In the end he found himself lost in the jungle. To make thing worse, he got captured by the native people lived inside the jungle.

They wanted to sacrifice him to their god. But when they noticed that the king had one finger short, they released him immediately as he was not a perfect man anymore and not suitable for sacrifice. The king managed to get back to his palace after all. And he finally understood the follower's wise quote, 'Good or bad, hard to say'. If he hadn't lost one finger,he could have been killed by the

native people.

He ordered to release the follower, and apologized to him. But to the king amaze, the follower was not mad at him at all. Instead, the follower said, 'It wasn't a bad thing that you locked me up.' Why? Because if the king hadn't locked the follower up, he would have brought the follower along to the jungle. If the native found that the king was not suitable, they would have used the follower. Again, the quote 'Good or bad, hard to say' stands.

The moral of the story:

Everything that happens in this world, there is no absolute good or bad. Sometimes good things turned out to be bad things eventually, while bad things become a gain.

Whatever good things that happen to you, enjoy it, but don't have to hold too tight to it, treat it as a surprise in your life.Whatever bad things that happen to you, don't have to feel too sad or despair, in the end, it might not be a total bad thing after all.

If one can understand this, he or she will find life much easier.

.::iniAku::.